Hiding my heart away

          So this is how the story went. I met someone by accident who blew me away. It was in the darkest of my days. When you took my sorrow and my pain, you buried them away.

          I dropped you off at the train station and put a kiss on top of your head. I watched you wave. Then I went on home to my skyscrapers, Neon lights and waiting papers that I call home.

          I woke up feeling heavy hearted and I'm going back to where I started the morning rain. Though I wish that you were here on that same old road that you brought me here.

          I wish I could lay down beside you. When the day is done, I wake up to your face against the morning sun. But like everything I've ever known
you'll disappear one day so I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away...

   

BEST Treasure...

The greatest treasure are not gold. Nor jewels, nor works of art. They cannot be held in your hands. They're held within your heart. For worldly things will fade aways as seasons come and go......BUT! the treasure of true friendship will never lose its glow........
Carmen Summer ♥

My life in China

22.10.2011                                                     Saturday                                                              Sunny Day
           Today, I woke up. Suddenly, I saw that clock was showing 10:54!! Wow.....so early so I decide to continue sleep. ARGH!! I can't sleep. Ok fine!! I watch television. After that, my dad come in to my room. He said : 'Wow...Jenny, you woke up. You wanna go eat McDonald?' and I answer him: 'OK =)'.
         
           After that, I change my clothes and get ready to McDonald. After eating, we go to a library. THERE WAS SOOO BIG!! WOOHOO!!. I walk inside, and I am getting hot and HOT! and I realize that THERE WAS NO AIR-CONDITIONER. What the heck??. Arhhh fine..I bought a book name  'How To Own A Corner' by Jimmy. It's a Chinese book. After that, I went to a place called Decatron. It's a place sell all the sporting things like, swimming trunk, exercise map and blablabla. >< and beside the shopping place, there was a place for everyone to exersice. THERE WAS COOL AND AWESOME! xD After that, we went home for prepare because afterward there were a wedding dinner. =D

          When we reach the loccation, I saw there were crowded of people. After that we ate...my dad told me that the prawn was the biggest 1 and you know what? it just about 3 cm ONLY!!!! I just can't believe it! After that, the bridge and bridegroom come toward the stage. After that they have a game. After that a woman loose and she needs to drink 16 cup of champion wow.....THE IMPROTANT THING IS SHE IS NOT DRUNK!! SHE IS A PRO !! ><

          After the special wedding dinner and we WALK back home. It is not far so we walk back home. I was holding my dad and mum's hand and we walk back home...=)
Carmen Summer♥

My feeling of leaving my school...

          Today is last day of school, 18.11.2011. I remember I cry 5 times in school. The first time is when I am standard 1, the first day of school I cried because I don't want go to school. The 2nD time, is because I cannot find my way back home xD 3rD time, I did something wrong to my friend so I cried =( Sorry Ja =) and the 4th time, I forgot to bring my homework and got bit by teacher >< but I almost forgot all the things but I remember the clearest is the last time, today 'cause I am leaving my school. It's funny the first time I cried because I don't want go to school but now, I don't want to leave my school.
           This school made my life full of colors, full of happy and the time taught me how to treasure my friends, how to love my school. I miss the sound when we play together, I miss the sound when we read together, I miss the sound of our laughing sound and the sound of the teaching sound...
            The school are made of laughing sound, teaching sound... When I am on my car, I turn back and I saw the school waving to me and telling me : " Carmen, study must hard and......." I can't hear the full sentence but I know it is important so I replied : " I will, bye my best friend..."
             So in here I want to say Thanks all my friends, my good friends, my best friends who gave me brave, who gave me happiness, who gave me strength to do something, who gave me full of rainbow in the school, who gave me lots of memory.... and Thanks for the teachers who gave me knowledge, who taught me how to treasure my life, who taught me be happy in my life....Thanks =')
             I sweep away all my bad memories as the wind come and go. Bye, my school.....
Carmen Summer ♥

Hari Raya

          Today, I wake up and I go to the kitchen and I eat my breakfast. After that, I prepare my present for my Malay friend. Her name is Nureen, now her father is taking us to another Malay friend and her name is Arina. They two are best friend.

          While we reach there, Arina come down and take us to her house. Her mother is a Cantonese but she married to a Malay man. So, I speak Cantonese to her so do she. After that, Arina bring us to her swimming pool. it is kinda big and wide. But then, we didn't bring swimming clothes so we just plash water at each other. >.< After that, she bring us to a gym room. Unfortunately, she don't have the keys to go in so we just look inside the gym room. it was full of thing to let the muscular man to train their muscle.

         After that, we went up to her house and eat some Malay rice. HMMMMMMMM.......the rice is sooooo tasty and I am getting hungry and hungry. Then, she gave us some chicken to eat. After we finish eating, we get some "green pau" and we go to Nureen's house.

         When we reach there, it's already 5 o'clock. When we go in to her house, there are a lot of Malay inside her house. Megan and I just say hi and walk in to her room. After that, we go to eat redang. Redang is a Malay food and it is a chicken and put some tasty curry.

          After eating, we go down and say something about our life and we say goodbye........
Carmen Summer♥

Allie, I need you. Don't go away...

         "Are you afraid of dying?" I asked when she laid beside me. "No." she replied weakly. " I will always be with you. I had a long day and need some rest now. Would you sing the 'Goodbye Song' for me to sleep?" I sang and tear filled through my eyes when I heard her whispered a goodbye to me softly.
     
         Allie, my elder sister, was diagnosed with leukemia when she was 17. She had flu and fever almost every month and mostly it lasted for a few week or more. My parents did not take it seriously and only gave her vitamin pills.

          One day, when Allie was having her Physical Education class, she had a bad headache and fainted. While sending her to nearby hospital, the teacher called my parents. The doctor hospitalized my sister and asked her to do a body check-up. After a month, she was surely diagnosed with late phase of Acute Myelord Leukemia (AML), a rare cancer, which affects the white blood cells formed in bone marrow. Dr Martin told us that it is hard to be treated and only 20%  to 30% of  patients were cured each year. Allie was expected to live only half-year from then.

          From that day, everything changed. We prayed and went to the church more frequently to hope this nightmare could end as fast as we wish. Allie quited school and started home-schooling. After first chemotherapy, my sister lost most of her hair and she vomitted a lot. Dr Martin stopped her to chemo since her antibodres were too weak. Our mum changed too. She cooked every day to make sure the food was clean enough for Allie. Sometimes, mother would hide in the toilet or room to cry, so do I.
 
          After some time, the doctor suggested Allie to do a bone marrow transplant. Every relatives and friends came to do the Human Leulcocyte Antigen (HLA) tissue test. Unfortunately, no one was matched. Dr Martin gave her some medicine which was not going to help but just to buy time. He also warned us that the end was getting closer and closer.

          On March 2006, Allie got her SPM results. She achieved 11 A's and we were so proud of her. After a year of diagnosis, she left us. The night before she left us, she came into my room to sleep with me. We chatted for an hour. I sang her to sleep and burst into tear after she closed her eyes. In a special way, we said our goodbyes and went our separate ways.....
Carmen Summer ♥

Faces

Sometimes, I like to smile with some strangers.
But....I saw a lots of different faces.
Some people smile like this =)
Some people nod.
Some people wave to me. =D
Some people just say : ' Hi =]'
Some people don't care about me. ><
Some people think that I am crazy. xD
So, What would you do?
Carmen Summer♥